A State of Elusive Dreaming

Well, another Saturday night gone and I'm still here at my dorm room. Probably doesn't help that I fell asleep last night at dinnertime and woke up at 10:00 at night. Again.

It wouldn't be so bad since I'm a night owl, but the constant lack of a proper sleep schedule is really messing with my head. The flow of time is completely off and all I can really sense is when it's dark or light outside. I really should get back into sleeping properly, but it's hard to shut down and unwind when your mind is racing a million thoughts at a time.

It doesn't help that I do this all the time

All I want to do is get up in the morning, go to class, eat lunch, take a nap, got to another class, eat dinner, unwind and do homework, and then go back to sleep. Sounds easy right?

You don't have to yell Lex.

I get so distracted from everyday things, like how much food I need to buy at the store, what did I forget to do for homework last night, did I do my laundry, how am I going to pay back my student loans, how can I become a better person, how to deal with my short attention sp~oh look a squirrel! (Love that joke.)

But I think one of the major distractions is that I tend to have multiple screens in front of me. By this I mean digital devices that draw my attention more than I realize. For example, while working on this blog, I'm looking at the computer screen. But I got a phone call from my mother, so there's the phone screen there. And I get bored waiting for something to download, so I'll play a game on my 3DS while I wait. Next thing you know, I'll be browsing the web on my phone while I'm browsing the web on my computer. Kind of ironic, no?

Sounds about right.

This is clearly a sign of what my teacher Brenda Miller was talking about in our first, (or was it second) week of class in how she gave us a segment of the story, "Hamlet's Blackberry," about how we spend more time going into the digital world more than the real world around us. I suppose since I'm a tech junkie, I fit into this category more than I realize. But I was literally growing up with the internet boom back in the 90's, so it's difficult to break away from being hardwired as an adult now that I have actual responsibilities. I just want to relax and do simple stuff, like blogging!

Okay, maybe not just blogging, but you get the idea. 

Well, I think it's obvious that I still have much to do in life and much more to learn. But for now, I should work on getting back to sleep in a couple of hours so I can at least enjoy my Sunday.

Cheers,

Cameron